For anyone wanting to give me a geographical answer, thank you but, I’m aware of the location in which I’m presently at. When I ask “where am I”, I’m talking about life in general. Since finishing university this has been simmering away, but has only been playing on my mind since the days following my graduation.
I had been warned about this ‘lost period’ so to speak, by a dear friend and at the time didn’t think that it would hit me that hard, if at all, yet here I am, experiencing that. Put simply, you feel lost and as if you’ve lost your purpose. For the past three years my world has revolved around my degree and living away from home really creates that bubble. Once you graduate, that bubble bursts as you conclude three years worth of work and move back home.
The time that has elapsed since graduating has allowed me to sit with my thoughts, think about where I want to be, what I want to do and also who I want to be going forward. To those who know me outside of Oh So Jack, don’t worry, I’m not going to have a personality re-haul. This time did however make me take a step back from the blog, as some of you may have noticed. I didn’t want to churn out content that I wouldn’t be able to look back at and know I put my all into, hence the radio silence.
I rode the waves of existential crisis and can safely say I’ve come out of the other side of it. I am back to feeling positive and excited about the unknown and the future that lay ahead of me. I am raring to go and am even looking at going to back into education to get a Masters Degree. And for any interested parties, I am also putting myself back out there on the market. It would be nice to leave the single market before Britain does…
I have ideas for content again and an excitement at getting back out there. Don’t get me wrong, I have had some absolutely fabulous days since graduating, time with family and friends and of course my new all time favourite day of my life, seeing Britney Spears at Brighton Pride this weekend just gone. It was just a time where I needed to re-group with myself and get back to living in the moment.
If you stuck this post out until the end, thank you. If you didn’t, well then you won’t be reading this part anyway. Have a great week and trust me when I say that I will be back soon.
Photography by Jack Bradley